This last Friday I was walking back to the office and saw a fortune from a fortune cookie laying on the sidewalk. What it said shook me to my core.
Fate has been poking at me for a while and this time it kind of slapped me in the face.
So when I saw this I first thought of my main plan for the future, which is to move to Costa Rica. I have been going to Costa Rica since I was four years old to visit my grandparents and it is my home away from home. I want to live there so bad and when I saw that fortune I felt like that dream is gone. But this “plan” is somewhat nebulous and while I tell everyone I know this is what I want to do I don’t know if it qualifies as a plan.
But also there is the plan I am currently on. This is somewhat more concrete since it is ingrained and familiar to me.
Going to work at my job. Coming home and doing whatever until I sleep. Waking up and doing it all over again until the weekend comes.
It seems like there should be more to life.
The thing about change is that it is hard. It is always harder to do something new than the things that have become habits and are automatic in your life. What is known is comfortable and the unknown is a little scary.
I have been through a lot of change throughout the years. Ups and downs have refined me like a precious metal. Looking back, all the things I feared made me a better person and helped me to truly appreciate the next phase I was going to. I know I shouldn’t fear whatever is my next metamorphosis, but somehow I do.
What gives me hope was the “Don’t worry, it will be good”.
I know God has a great plan for me. So whether it is my hopes for the future, or my current day-to-day, I know something is going to change soon.
This got a little too serious pretty quick so I will leave you on a funny note.
This weekend I went through my closet and found some clothes to give to Goodwill. My wife got the idea to take those clothes and cut them up to make a yoga mat. She cut the legs off some of my pants and gave me back a pair of hotpants. I put them on and started to twerk for her.
Pretty crazy, check it out: